March flew by in the best and worst ways possible. Worst because every month that passes is a month closer to my maternity leave ending. And best because the weather has been lovely and it’s been so great mothering with some sunshine.

I’ve been thinking about I am going to possibly justify why a quarter of the year is through and I still haven’t managed to commit to the creative goals I’ve had for myself… then this morning while feeding my son with a cup of coffee in my hands I realised that there was no cause for justification. The reason is clear. I’m a mother and I am enjoying being a mother so much that everything else feels unimportant most days.

This role is all encompassing and there’s a reason why mothers all over the internet speak about “losing” oneself in motherhood. Although I can’t relate to this experience as someone who keeps finding herself in motherhood, I can see why it would be scary to fully dive into the role of MOTHER.

With that being said though, I think I owe myself and you a reflection on some things I’ve loved and enjoyed in March.

Books: The Magical Yet by Angela DiTerlizzi

I haven’t had the best of luck with books I’ve read recently. I’ve read widely and across genres but no books have managed to cement themselves as five stars in my mind. I have however been very lucky that I’ve read some great children’s books for my son with The Magical Yet being by far my favourite. It’s beautifully illustrated and the punchy words deliver a message that struck a nerve with me at my very BIG age of 35! A tad too grown up for my five month old but definitely one I know I’ll hold onto and he’ll hopefully grow to love as he comprehends the message.

Clothing: The Emile Cardigan by Sezanne

Now here, this… this is where you start to see the cracks in my resolutions and my no-buy ambitions. I have had my eye on this cardigan for about six months. I saw it and instantly fell in love but at this point I had decided that I will not be buying any new clothing especially knitwear because I wanted to focus on my knitting.

However I finally crumbled in late February when my husband told me he can’t listen to me talk about it anymore and I really should just buy it and get on with it. I bought it in February but because it’s only started warming up I’ve only started wearing it I March and I LOOOVE it! Despite the fact that in an attempt to sort of punish myself for not sticking to my no-buy I bought a colour that is outside my norm of colours (this just means I didn’t buy the pink one).

I’ve really loved it. It’s soft and cosy and perfect for the current wear. I can even button it over my carrier when I’m wearing my son and it doesn’t feel like it’s being stretched out and damaged.

Look there are many reasons I could mouth off about this but the truth is I just like it.

Tech: Airpod maxes

My husband very nicely got me purple AirPod maxes for Mother’s day (it’s in March in the U.K).

I’m had very reasonably requested that he give me £5million for the hard work of growing the baby, having the baby, feeding the baby and taking care of him but since he’s not a millionaire I’ve settled for these.

On a serious note, I’ve really loved these. My current AirPods are calling it quits and it’s been nice to replace them with a slightly more obnoxious pair of earphones. Tomorrow I am going back to the gym (I haven’t been in the gym since August 2024) and I look forward to listening to my favourite workout songs with these.

Podcast: If Books Could Kill

This is by far one of my favourite podcasts. I really appreciate Michael Hobbes’ rigour and his ability to research is unmatched and is probably only rivalled by Aubrey Gordon who hosts Maintenance Phase with him (another favourite podcast). The If Books Could Kill podcast is hosted by Mike and Peter Shamshiri who brings a lightness to the podcast that I also love. They have such a great groove. Recently I went back to listen to the podcast about The Anxious Generation by Jonathan Haidt because I’ve been slowly reading the book and wanted a more balanced view (aka I didn’t want to fall into the bias of believing a thing that sounded true because it suited my current under of the world).

The episode is well researched and the two hosts take this topic very seriously whilst very much finding holes in the books main thesis. In the end of course I loved that they come to a similar conclusion to me; that this is a serious topic however their skepticism about whether the author the best person to tackle it.

It was so good to reflect on the past month. I had to go through my pictures and sieve through the ones that weren’t my son because he is my favourite of all the favourites.

He’s teaching me so much about myself and I am rising to the high standard that I think he deserves in a mother (more on this in another post) and it has been incredible.

Thanks so much for reading… I’ll see you soon-ish, I hope.