I’ve been looking for ways to stay connected with people I love and people with whom I’d like better friendships with. It’s been interesting because I am also doing this while simultaneously trying to cut back on my social media use and there are people who I can only access through social media. It’s so interesting how handles have officially replaced phone numbers and business cards and whatever else came before then.

So here I am, 30 years old. A millennial who has actually relied heavily on social media to connect and nurture friendships deciding that I need a break, I need to walk away and I need to start asking people for their phone numbers or the direction in which I should send a smoke signal or whatever way people used to communicate before handles and hashtags.

I used to think that my introversion meant that I could be alone all the time and I’d be happy and whilst I do enjoy my own company, growing has taught me that I do indeed, not only want but also crave human connections and that some connections matter more to me than others do.

So I’ve decided to minimize the light connections. The connections that leave me thirstier and wanting more. I want deep connections that will fill my bucket to the brim and still leave some water for me to dip my feet into.

I am not quite sure whether this break is providing me with that. All I know is I crave more, I want more and I deserve more. Whether the more is a deeper connections with those I already have and love or whether the more is an opening for new blooms to creep in and plant themselves in my heart I am not quite sure yet. All I am certain of is my desire to connect and to connect in a meaningful and nourishing way.